I think I'm in a state officially deemed "funk."
I've missed almost an entire month of life: between my trip to California with Tucker, Heidi's baby being born, a trip to Idaho, packing up Tucker's stuff, attending Tucker's farewell Church meeting, and sending him off to Provo, I've somehow lost my direction and motivation.
On Sunday morning, I was surprisingly released from teaching my Institute class, a labor of love that completely overtook my life for the last ten months. That news, all alone, was difficult to take, but on top of the last month I've had, it about sent me over the edge.
School's out tomorrow, and I have little to nothing in place for our summer. That is not like me.
I try to keep it pretty upbeat here at the Sanatorium, but these last few weeks have been hard. Hard to accept all the transitions and changes and shocks to my psyche. So much change--some of it so hard to fathom. To say things have been hard is an understatement. I consider myself a pretty tough lady, but there have been a few times where I've teetered on the edge of sanity.
I decided today to shut the door on all of it. I'm done dwelling on any of it. Life changes, kids grow up, jobs in my Church come and then they go. And it's all good.
This funk is officially over.
Summer.
Bring it on.
Linking up to F at Alphabe-Thursday with Jenny Matlock.
I've missed almost an entire month of life: between my trip to California with Tucker, Heidi's baby being born, a trip to Idaho, packing up Tucker's stuff, attending Tucker's farewell Church meeting, and sending him off to Provo, I've somehow lost my direction and motivation.
On Sunday morning, I was surprisingly released from teaching my Institute class, a labor of love that completely overtook my life for the last ten months. That news, all alone, was difficult to take, but on top of the last month I've had, it about sent me over the edge.
School's out tomorrow, and I have little to nothing in place for our summer. That is not like me.
I try to keep it pretty upbeat here at the Sanatorium, but these last few weeks have been hard. Hard to accept all the transitions and changes and shocks to my psyche. So much change--some of it so hard to fathom. To say things have been hard is an understatement. I consider myself a pretty tough lady, but there have been a few times where I've teetered on the edge of sanity.
I decided today to shut the door on all of it. I'm done dwelling on any of it. Life changes, kids grow up, jobs in my Church come and then they go. And it's all good.
This funk is officially over.
Summer.
Bring it on.
I'm back. For good.
Linking up to F at Alphabe-Thursday with Jenny Matlock.
You go, girl! Summer is awesome - let's get on with it!
ReplyDeleteYour picture is hilarious!
ReplyDeleteYou have really had bunches of life changes and are totally deserving of a meltdown.
But you're summer is gonna rock!
Good for you for your Carpe Diem!
Onward and upward!
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Your picture makes me laugh. I'm sorry that things were difficult, but I'm glad you found your spirit back. Keep it up!
ReplyDeleteFunk and I are old friends. We hang out sometimes. I was sure hoping to attend your class in the fall, boooo for me. I stole your summer list idea, but so far, it's in a notebook. Now, to put it on the calendar :) Happy Summer!
ReplyDeletelove that summer list - goodbye funk for sure!!
ReplyDeleteOoooh a trip to Seattle - the city I lived in for 6 1/2 years when first married and where my oldest two were born. Wish I could stowaway with you all as I love that place. Not surprised you've lost your groove but the other kids and Brad will help you get it back. Enjoy your summer (while I'm freezing near Antarctica in Dunedin). Cath
ReplyDeleteYour funk didn't last long! I hope you add even more fun to your bucket list.
ReplyDeleteWait, you mean there's actually a realm other than FUNK? Wow..... Ok, I knew that, really. Just take the K away:) Glad to have you on my follow list. But be warned...between the three blogs I get a little out there, specially for a Utah gal:) BTW, you do know that list will morph, right? Ya, you know...
ReplyDeleteI'm so there! Ready to pack away winter coats and bring out the flipflops!
ReplyDeleteYou've been in the "everything's changing" season...time to relax!
Bring it on. I am going to have to do a slob day this summer. It sounds like too much fun.
ReplyDeleteI sort of understand what you are feeling! While my oldest is about to start Kindergarten, he will one day be off to the MTC...Our lives change and we either adapt and continue to function,or we remain stubborn and miserable! Thanks for following me, I am following you too!
ReplyDeleteI think I need to add Seattle to my summer list. Good thinking.
ReplyDeleteYes, I am a fairly new blogger - still have a LOT to learn from you seasoned pros! Enjoyed looking over all three of your blogs.
ReplyDeleteGlad your on the other end of funk now and can keep going. Have a great Memorial Day Weekend!
ReplyDeleteIf you are going to be in a funk, it might as well be in the winter time when there really isn't much fun stuff to do...
ReplyDeletelol..
glad you are feeling a little better.
The list is a great idea!
As long as you make such nice pictures of yourself, everything is OK, lol !
ReplyDeleteI realized today that routine is what makes ms the happiest. When I've found my routine, I'm walking around on clouds. Like how I put out my winder farms cooler tonight:) love the happy that comes from a good hard change.
ReplyDeleteWell GOOD for you! I wish I could somehow shut the door on MY funk and move on. I'm so sick of being here in funkland. Hence a month of silence on the ol' bloggy. Anyway, hope you really do feel better and have a fab summer. Looks like you've got a lot to do on that there list.
ReplyDeleteI think we all feel a little funky sometimes... Good job on getting yourself afloat again!
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear it...and I love the slideshow on your sidebar...great idea!
ReplyDeleteGotta get our summer list ready too!
Wait, you're not teaching institute next semester??? :(
ReplyDeleteJust knock that "k" off and go for the FUN!
ReplyDeleteJen, you are a tough woman, but you have had a lot of changes. We are here for you and we know that you will blow the lid off of summer! Praying and thinking of you! hugs, Cathy
ReplyDeletei double-heart your summer lists!!! you are the best mom ever. :)
ReplyDeletei know how you feel. you hit the nail on the head entirely. i've been doing nothing but struggling with change in all the places i want to stay the same, and struggling with all the things that are static that i wish were more dynamic. short answer = i'm frustrated with life right now. perhaps a good summer list is in order here at our house as well! :) thanks for being so inspiring!
Blah to the funks! Yep, life does constantly change. Savor the present. Now go forth and enjoy summer!!
ReplyDeleteWe are making our list tomorrow at FHE...your list looks amazing. And most importantly, doable! Enjoy!
ReplyDeleteMy husband thinks I'm crazy. I started laughing so hard at your picture!
ReplyDeleteYou've had so many changes...I think it takes some time for them to catch up with us...or us with them.
You'll have a great summer, you always think of things to do!
I'm glad you're looking ahead and not letting change pull you down into the abyss.
Thanks for a thoughtful (and funny) link this week.
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