I've felt imbalanced and empty.
I've come to a few conclusions:
I still try to do too much. Even though I only exercised once this week. Even though I didn't get to everything every day. Even though I still felt like I need to do more.
I wonder if balance is even attainable. Even though I will keep trying to find it. Even though I refuse to give up.
I have a personality flaw, pinpointed just this weekend. I don't know how to fix it, even though I think I want to. Even though I know I need to.
I admit that I need to enjoy my journey more often--at the sacrifice of my to-do list.
This sounds a lot heavier and more morose than I feel. But let it be said, it was a tough week for me.
But I'm not giving up.
That is not what I do.
Sorry about your week Jenny. Some days I feel more balanced than others..that's for sure. Hoping this week is better..thinking of you!! xoxo
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you had a tough week... I think you're being too harsh on yourself. We all stumble every now and then. The fact that you're refusing to give up shows just how strong a person you are even when you feel like you can't achieve balance. Balance is a difficult goal to achieve. Just hang on! Things will fall into place eventually. My thoughts are with you this week!
ReplyDeletei'm sorry the week was so ugly. :[
ReplyDeletehey, jen, i've been feeling this way lately too ... I tried to write a post about it but even that ended up jumbled and 'unbalanced' ... in fact, i'd say i'm a hot mess of 'unbalanced' right now :-( I'll watch how you do it and see if I can't grab some strategies ...
ReplyDeletegood for you for keeping at it. . .life is definately a struggle isn't it. I am not sure that this side of eternity that true balance is possible. . .but that doesn't mean we are supposed to give up. I will be praying for you dear friend!
ReplyDeleteSorry for the crummy week. balance is mystifying for me. I hope you find it.
ReplyDeleteHang on my friend! I think every single day there are things that cause imbalance, but sometimes they are just things and I have to let them go.
ReplyDeleteHopefully this week you will totally rock it! BUT don't be to hard on yourself.
You are more amazing than you give yourself credit for!
I LOVE that poem from Laraine!
ReplyDeleteAnd remember this as you search for balance, Jen. You still need to do it YOUR way. So don't throw out the baby with the bath water, or you will feel like a fish OUT Of water.
(In other words, unbalanced...Even if what you're doing looks like "balance" to/for someone else.)
Hope that makes sense.
=)
Keep moving forward.
ReplyDeleteI've had one of those weeks too, and the moving forward is the only thing that works.
Here's to a much better week!
We seem to be having a similar journey Jen. Balance, it appears to come so easily to some, I wonder why I'm not able to attain it.
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I'm sorry that you're not feeling like the light and perky Jenny you usually seem to be. I feel like this sometimes, too. It is part of the journey. If anyone can do this, it's you. :)
ReplyDeleteBalance is a subjective matter...sometimes things just have to give and it's just a matter of priority...the rest has to be let go for the moment. Hope things feel better soon!!!!
ReplyDeleteBalance is overrated any way, but isn't it though? I hope you do find more joy in your journey though, and that you can keep your to-do list mostly intact too. I know I know the whole cake and eat it too.
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